Welcome Randy32. I am sorry for your situation that brought you here, but glad you found a place full of resources, support and experience.
I was sad to have to let my relationship go, too. Still very sad about it. But in the end, it was the best thing for me, as I knew I wasn't satisfied with what I had, and how unfair is that for someone else? It became my responsibility to care for myself, be honest and humble, and admit there wasn't a chance of this working, and let it go.
Alcoholism is a contender like no other. It will always win. Find a good man that meets your needs. They are out there - this is a big big world that we live in.