Well, I made it through night # 2. I Still didnt sleep, I managed to doze off for about 45 minutes, but thats it. I ended up watching "Intervention" all night and crying along with the folks on the show. Pathetic, I know, but I think it actually helped me. I think I needed to cry. Still have the nightsweats, haven't slept long enough to get nightmares. i also spent a lot of time on these boards yesterday reading success stories, and it made me realize how great it was when I have been successful. I know I want that again. I am so glad to have found these boards. My family is supportive, but there are things I just can't tell them. Maybe they know how bad it is, but I could never talk details with them. I would be too embarrassed. I will write more later, but I am just so tired right now, I got my kids to school, and now I feel like I should take a nap. I will be glad when today is over, if I remember correctly, the worst part will hopefully be over by then.