Originally Posted by
suki44883 
There is a saying that goes something like...if you wring the alcohol out of an asshat, you're left with an asshat. Meaning, sometimes, people are just asshats, whether they are drinking or using drugs or not.
Is this how you want to live the rest of your life? Is this how you want your beautiful children to grow up?
OMG I know but we have been married 12 years and it was never bad unless he was using. One of the other sponsees told me that part of the recovery is dealing with this thinking of self absorbing and narcisism but Lord help me gwt through this.
Why now after all this time?
No I don't want to live my life like this but i literally have no where to go and when I was planning to leave before he told me I'd never see the kids again. At this point I am trapped I guess but just need to be strong enough to take the brunt of it all.