Thanks everyone im feeling better about it little by little. I know I will be ok doing in patient because anything is better then doing it at home I tried that in july and even with suboxone I couldn't do it. I couldn't handle being sick and seeing my kids need me. I need to go away to get better and have time for me and only me. Time for me not to worry about being to sick in front of my kids and not doing things with them and for them was always a huge driving force for me to give myself the excuse to use I