Originally Posted by
EternalQ 
Paul, You will always have times you want to drink. At least for a very long time after stopping, you will. If you are waiting for the day that wanting alcohol stops before you quit, then you will not ever stop. You are addicted. By your own words, you are.
Is some miracle going to appear and stop your desire to drink, just by venting on SR? No, it won't. Have you spent time on SR lately encouraging others on SR? Because if you just vent, you also could get addicted to that, and then you will become upset when you don't recieve the kind of feedback you prefer.
May I suggest you try to spend at least half as much time on SR encouraging others as you do writing here, and see if that helps you crave less? Otherwise you are missing out on the power of SR to help you. Since your rules have restricted all suggestions outside of SR, then I offer that. It is within your guidelines.
Well I sporadically try to encourage others. I just have a hard time giving other people advice or support when clearly I can't even keep my own house in order. I would like nothing more than to be able to share and help others out, I just don't want to be the do as I say, not as I do type person. And I do have conversations behind the scenes with others in an encouraging way. I don't view this as venting. I'm just trying to journal my thoughts.
For some reason I do much better when I'm doing this than when I'm not, so I like to just keep it going. Because regardless of me typing this stuff or not I still think it. I don't get the posts that imply I'm not trying... I am trying very hard, and if I slip up I want to be able to be honest about it, with out hiding from it and act like everything is all good.