no, you dont have to live with it. that is a choice. if you want to change, ya gotta put in the footwork. the world is not against you. i found out that there was a very small amount of the world that even knew i existed. i'm not that important to the world, but i am to God.
" I know I should just talk to him but I'm suppose to be the father and am supposed to be stronger than this."
and you got this information you are supposed to be stronger from????? would you see me as not being strong as a bad thing?
it has taken time for you to get tucked into yer little box. ya aint gonna make it out over night. it's gonna take T.I.M.E. and footwork. give yerself a break. yer not a bad person yer a sick person.