If I were you that is not the story I would be telling myself.
I would be telling myself a much more wonderful story, one in which all of my hearts desires are included.
Karma isn't over until you , well, aren't here anymore. This so called Karma that you are now paying , well , what if it is just the next step to all of your hearts desire.
Please, write a new story for us, this one stinks, sorry, I don't like it at all.