Honestly when I feel exhausted and mentally drained is when I get the most out of AA. I walk in empty and leave full. It just is a relief to around people like me who have struggled like me. For today, the obsession to drink has lifted so that I don't feel like I have to make a daily decision to drink or not. When I wake up, I do ask my HP to help me not take a drink today. But it's not something I wrestle with. I don't drink. period. I have thoroughly accepted that that is no longer a choice for me. It is truly a relief.
I hope you are able to make peace with that reality also. Whether it's in AA or Smart Recovery or here at SR makes no matter. Keep trying until something clicks.
Jennikate
P.S. I have premenstrual dysphoric disorder so I know where you are coming from on that point. That's when I really have to step up my game. More journalling, exercise, meditation and a lot of positive self talk.