Since there is physiological component and a clear pattern to your drinking maybe you need to try therapy with a qualified psychologist or social worker. It would give you support and your skill at reading your own behavior would be put to good use.
Rejecting AA on the basis of a hypothetical fear of becoming dependent on it and SmartRecovery on the basis of one meeting is silly. There are plenty of good reasons to reject AA, SmartRecovery etc. but the ones you give here are not. It sounds like even you know that. If support is important to you, these are great possible resources.
We have all been where you are now. I know it is a miserable place, but your generalized discomfort is simply growing pains. Your ability to articulate what is bothering you is important and I think will be a great help to your recovery.