Thank you (Impurrfect) for your kind words and advice. I'm having a really hard time today. This weekend a bunch of my father's friends from all over the country will be getting together to celebrate him and have a memorial service. Unfortunately I can't be there b/c it's about 8 hrs away and I don't think I could make that trip w/ my 6 month old. But one of the ladies putting it together said she's going to around w/ a flip cam and have people tell stories and such for me, so that will be nice. I'm still struggling with the fact that so many people knew him, the real him and I just have no clue. I just wish I could've had that time with him. Today is just a hard day for some reason and I know there will be good and bad from here on out. I'm just so mad that alcohol took my father so young (47) when there are people who are living into their 70s with the same disease. It's just not fair :'(