Well, I figured out why he wanted to call me tonight. He can't live at his brother's anymore (wonder why? the drunken, all-weekend binges?) and he wants to not pay me back for a couple months so he can get up the money to get an apartment. When I responded that that wasn't acceptable to me, I got a huge guilt trip about how he thought I loved him, this isn't how you treat someone you love, etc.
Weird that I feel nothing for him anymore. I don't feel guilty and I don't care what happens to him anymore. But I desperately need that money back. Maybe I am going to have to accept the loss. If he gets his own place, he will never be able to afford to pay me back. It seems his job is gathering evidence to fire him anyway, so I no longer have any hope of him continuing to pay me. Sigh...