Hey Dani,I read your post in Newcomer's.I will say a special prayer for you tonight.What happened does not make you any more a sinner than anyone else in the world!The fact that you're agonizing over it so much goes to show how hard you are fighting against it.God knows what is in your heart and He will not desert you no matter what you do.I'm not very religious(I don't attend church or anything like that) but I do know from personal experience that God(however you percieve Him) is always there when I need him the most(even when I've turned my back on Him).I'm not trying to preach,just telling you what I feel in my heart.
I pray for God to bless you and give you strength to overcome this and forgive yourself.I have faith in you!
Hi,Eddie and Sherry.God bless you too!