Oh so to make matters even more strange for me, I went to a mtg for my lunch hour!!!
No one asked me to lunch, which is fine, I didn't really expect that to happen (but sort of wished it would) - and so I decided to go see friends.
I got a lot of warm wishes and hugs. I got to see another comerade celebrate 7 yrs sobriety. He cried too - wow!! It was so nice to see him doing well and left me with an even better feeling.
And get this, the topic was grass is greener on the other side, or dispelling notions that it was fun drinking, thinking that we are fixed and can go back to drinking. I thought that I was right where I needed to be. Because I could reflect on the years past and wish I was going to happy hour after work, I could talk myself into a drink --- but really, I'm sooo thankful for being sober. And OMG, I'm 40 and sober!!