40th birthday
40th birthday
Today's my 40th birthday. And I feel I have more comraderie with you all then the people I work with. The people I spend 8 hours a day with every day!!
My secretary and husband cooked up a surprise and surprised me with balloons, a dozen roses, and breakfast!
But...my bosses hardly care. One had a grandchild born (she's got 20 of them. literally, they just keep popping them out) and so that's all they care about. I can't help but be bugged by it a little. I hate that I still let work seep into my personal life, my image of myself. I hate it!!!
Otherwise, I can't believe what a great husband I have. Things weren't so great between us last year. And now, I thank my sobriety, AA and my friends, for helping me make life wonderful again for me.
I might add, this is the first sober birthday I've had since I was 15. I can hardly believe it.
My secretary and husband cooked up a surprise and surprised me with balloons, a dozen roses, and breakfast!
But...my bosses hardly care. One had a grandchild born (she's got 20 of them. literally, they just keep popping them out) and so that's all they care about. I can't help but be bugged by it a little. I hate that I still let work seep into my personal life, my image of myself. I hate it!!!
Otherwise, I can't believe what a great husband I have. Things weren't so great between us last year. And now, I thank my sobriety, AA and my friends, for helping me make life wonderful again for me.
I might add, this is the first sober birthday I've had since I was 15. I can hardly believe it.
Happy Birthday!!! I'm glad to hear about you and your husband doing good, that's great news! As far as your coworkers, don't worry about. I try not to be too friendly with my coworkers, becuase they just aren't people i'd get along with outside of work, so I don't care what they think! haha.
Thanks everyone!!!
Yeah, I know they aren't my buddies. Actually, it's not my coworkers - they go out of their way to make my day great. It's my bosses. I have 5 of them. They could care less and are more interested in themselves.
Yeah, I know they aren't my buddies. Actually, it's not my coworkers - they go out of their way to make my day great. It's my bosses. I have 5 of them. They could care less and are more interested in themselves.
Oh so to make matters even more strange for me, I went to a mtg for my lunch hour!!!
No one asked me to lunch, which is fine, I didn't really expect that to happen (but sort of wished it would) - and so I decided to go see friends.
I got a lot of warm wishes and hugs. I got to see another comerade celebrate 7 yrs sobriety. He cried too - wow!! It was so nice to see him doing well and left me with an even better feeling.
And get this, the topic was grass is greener on the other side, or dispelling notions that it was fun drinking, thinking that we are fixed and can go back to drinking. I thought that I was right where I needed to be. Because I could reflect on the years past and wish I was going to happy hour after work, I could talk myself into a drink --- but really, I'm sooo thankful for being sober. And OMG, I'm 40 and sober!!
No one asked me to lunch, which is fine, I didn't really expect that to happen (but sort of wished it would) - and so I decided to go see friends.
I got a lot of warm wishes and hugs. I got to see another comerade celebrate 7 yrs sobriety. He cried too - wow!! It was so nice to see him doing well and left me with an even better feeling.
And get this, the topic was grass is greener on the other side, or dispelling notions that it was fun drinking, thinking that we are fixed and can go back to drinking. I thought that I was right where I needed to be. Because I could reflect on the years past and wish I was going to happy hour after work, I could talk myself into a drink --- but really, I'm sooo thankful for being sober. And OMG, I'm 40 and sober!!
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