Not sure how to word this, but I feel like such an idiot. For one thing I am angry that I stayed in such a horrible relationship for as long as I did. Except now I am mad that I left after hearing success stories. It took me to leave my AH for him to get himself into active recovery and it pisses me off now he wants nothing to do with me. I was the one that was there taking care of him for so many years.... Provoking and Enabling....UGH! Nevermind... I already know I was part of the problem and not part of the solution. I miss him.
