Welcome back Lee.
Don't best yourself up too much...that will only feed the cycle.
No need to feel you let anyone down. We all understand.
Many many of us have fallen for that lie Lee.
It's a remarkable hardy one.
It's classic alcoholic logic - 'my life is awesome...one beer will make it awesome +1'
nope.
The next time you hear it...fight it...come here....we will do out best to talk you out of it
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