Starting to Change
Now that I have stopped popping ambien which was my love affair more than life I am finding I have no desire to take them and I see my psychiatrist next week even, and I wont be asking for a refill. This is a huge step because my brain can think more clearly, I know I'm ready to change, but most of all keep my promise to one of my best friends. My wake up call was seeing my best friend at her wake who had OD'd on heroin. I realized just bc its a prescription doesn't make it okay for out of control fun time or not dealing with life fun. Now that I have stepped back from the situation I can see how this was long overdue coming. I'm remembering to take it one day at a time and to not crucify myself if I mess up because i can always start over again.