Thanks Jitterbug, My bf says not to think too much about what will happen to us because either way, I am better off without alcohol. Our relationship hasn't been destroyed by my drinking... yet. I am afraid if I don't succeed in sobriety it is only a matter of time. On the other hand, I am afraid that if I do succeed in sobriety, it is only a matter of time. It is a conundrum for sure. I suppose it may be best to just take one day at a time....