Originally Posted by
walkingwithgod 
I have not considered AA, and my anxiety would likely prevent me from going. I am just not even sure who I am anymore, and what I like or want to do with myself. Because, all I do in my spare time is drink.
If you get yourself through the door the first time, you will find many folks on the inside who are EXACTLY like you.
You have to go to experience it.
Go to a couple of "OPEN" meetings in your area. You will hear your story told over and over.
All the best.
Bob R