So, he says to me that he needed to go to the store to "get whipped cream" all of a sudden....and it's pouring rain outside. Was I born yesterday???? Uh, no. So, he walks in the door after "getting his whipped cream" and I make him empty his pockets. Oh wait, what's that??? Hmmmm, about 5 or 6 pain pills. I took them and flush them and again I said "I'm leaving you" and he starts with the "I need u now more then ever, I'm ready to stop, I'm going to go to a meeting tomorrow, I'm done, I swear"....
UGH!!!!!!!!! I just don't know how to feel, what to think, what to do. I know I need to leave but the thought right now is so unbelievably overwhelming. What am I doing?????? Why is it when he uses, I feel so weak????? Why don't I have the strength to say that I'm leaving and actually follow through with it???? How many times am I going to put myself and my children through this?????? Help!!!!!!!!!!!
