boogabstell

My qualifier and I were being evicted from our home and he wanted to take our 6 year old on a little summer vacation before anything else. DOC /speed. Our house had turned into a complete mess, a hoarders house. In our driveway we had a 20' boat with no motor he got for free, a trailer and tons of crap. The backyard was a mess, our house was a mess. Anyway last Thursday he went off the deep end and pushed me and put his hand around my throat because I would not give the ring he gave me 7 years ago back to him. The next day he told me that wouldnt have happened if I just would have given him the ring, Then he proceeded to pack up some of his stuff while he was doing this he was having our son help him. Meanwhile he was calling me white trash and lazy, lier, all sorts of names. Then he started to break all the stuff that he has ever given me. He came into the bedroom and broke all my records and tore there covers, burned my wooden brush he gave me for christmas. I told him i would take our son out of the house for awhile so he could calm down. He then got real angry and aggressive and in my face but did not lay a hand on me. I told him I was going to call the police. I actually went down to the statiion and made a statement that is all I wanted to do to let them know what was going on and I did not want to press any charges. So this snowballed into a nightmare. They arressted him with 3 felonies and 2 misdeamors. Domestic Violence, Robbery, Imprisoment, child abuse and something else. Holy crap I did not want any of this to happen. the police stated it was now out of my control even if I dont press charges the state of CA will. So while he was in jail I packed all my stuff and 2 kids and took a train east. I do not want to take the kids away from him or be without him. He is unhealthy now and I want him to get better. I left not only bcz of him but because we were about to be literally homeless. I have huge feelings of guilt and do not know what to say to him. I have not talked to him since this happend and I am sure he is completely pissed off. I feel alone and lost. I came to stay with a friend however her husband just quit drinking 5 days ago and she has 3 kids. He is very irritable and I feel like I have to still walk around on eggshells. Option to move to my Moms but I told my qualifier and his parents that I would not move there. My qualifier does not like my mom and has always been against moving there. I feel comfortable at moms but dont want to **** him or his parents of anymore by gong back on my word. I know I am unhealthy and need help. I feel like I am in this huge nightmare and no one will wake me up.