Rookie,
Welcome to SR.
I like Roy's analogy. It makes sense. Never quit trying. It takes some of us a while before we get it, and others get it the first time. I have met a few people in AA who never went back out, then there's people like me, who have been around since 92 and just now got the message. Nov 1st will be 6 months. The difference this time, is that I reached out for help. I did 90+ in 90 days, and I still go to a meeting every day. They are my source of strength. You can do this, just be honest, open minded and willing to change.
Love and Hugs.......Sherry