angie,
you didn't do that tho. you dont really have to beat yourself up with that, as it did not even happen. he was putting you in an unfair position.
be good to yourself. you deserve it. i dont think you are sick at all. just human sweetie.
i think you are a very nice person, and kind. we live and learn. you have had some time to think about this, and your feelings will guide you in the right direction, should he make that unfair offer again.
sending a hug,
chicory