You know how special you are....just believe yourself. You're a wonderful person. His addiction will never let him acknowledge this because then he would actually realize what he's given up for this addiction of his. So he blames you or paints you in a bad light to others so that he can cope with losing you. But holding on to his addiction is his choice. Have fun tonight and I hope you and your best friend enjoy your new place! I'd be LOST without my true friends!