And I guess the realization to completely stop was delivered in a very unconventional way by an ex boyfriend! Followed by the suggestion by another ex who I met for pizza. We lived together and my emotional drunken tirades probably destroyed him as a man. My mother hates him because she emailed him and told her the truth. I guess he wanted her to do something. She love me but she isn't that kind of mother but it upset her so much she started seeing a psychologist and she revealed to me that she has been discussing it with him. I never knew... She would question me about the amount of wine I drank (she doesn't drink) when I would visit for the holidays and I saw books on alcoholism in her room but she is an avid reader and she never said much to me about it. When I told her I was going to quit she said nothing would make her happier. I guess I am the kind of child who you can't push to do anything and she knows this.