Julynine, we all want to be a bit more positive, I believe, but more often than not, it's the I Feel Crappy Today Posts that may help another person more than Everything Is Beautiful And Wonderful (And I'm Full Of Crap) Posts....
We have been where you are and we know, we really do know how it is! It's difficult. Each day I got through crappy stuff, I felt a little better about being sober and continuing on in living a real life without hiding from my emotions.
I didn't stop smoking cigs just yet. I had a crappy Friday after I had attempting quitting for 1.5 days (that in itself was a miracle). I don't recall posting about it too much as I do have people I talk to in real life who are in recovery and who know what it's like to quit the cigs, too. Some of my madness is not posted on here. Maybe I need to let you all know when I'm in a crappy mood, too.
I know I can stop the cigs. I've stopped everything else (except sugar)... I will try again. This time, I will hope to stay stopped.
Post whenever you can!! We need to hear from you!
Hugs & love,