My first AA meeting, I had crippling anxiety (I have GAD and SAD) I was literally shaking, couldn't make eye contact, having shoulder and neck spasms as I was super tense. I still walked through those doors and even walked up front to get my 24 hour chip in front of everyone. No I'm not tooting my own horn, I'm just saying stop making excuses. I went for myself, I went for my kids. Stop making excuses. No doc appt? so what! get to a meeting, or at least get real with yourself.