Welcome October rain, I too am the Mom of a 22 year old AS on Heroin. He has gone into hiding due to the last theft from our home and we are no contact with him. He stole from us over and over each time we tried to "help" him. I have learned that I am powerless over him and my life had become unmanageable. Letting go is never easy and it isn't "one and done". We have to let go time and time again (sometimes minute by minute).
Please seek the help you need because no one needs to be alone through this hell on earth of addiction.
Blessings, hugs peace
Teresa