Cutting back.
So, I honestly don't think that I'm ready for complete abstinence.
I've been cutting back from my using lately. It's been 2 days since I last used DXM(my DOC) and it's bee 3 days since I've used cannabis.
I know they say in NA, that you're "supposed" to stay completely abstinent from all mind-altering substances, but I'm not sure that I really want to stop using all together. And it honestly hasn't been much of a problem for me lately. Considering I was using almost everyday a couple of months ago.
I love the program of NA, because it really does teach me good values and it helps keep my head in the right place, but I almost feel like a "phoney" because I attend NA meetings regularly but I don't have plans to be completely sober. As long as I keep myself busy it's really easy not to pick up.
Can anyone else relate? Thanks.