Have you seen a Dr Twal - that might be the first step?
Detox can be rough for some of us.
Have you tried other things besides rehab?
There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the
Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
I really believe anybody can stop - if they put enough energy & commitment into the task
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