I have been drinking for over a month and can't stop! I was sober for the last two days, but the withdrawals have been terrible. I went through sweating/shaking/minor twitching, and my brain is still craving alcohol. The only thing that I've ingested other than alcohol today was a medium Dunkin Donuts iced coffee. A normal person would at least get something into their stomach, but I just want to get F'd up and keep the buzz going.
What scares me are the alcoholic deaths on my mothers side of the family. My great-grandfather, grandfather, uncle and first cousin all died at a young age from this terrible disease. I don't want to be the next in line
I have been to two rehabs...Healthcare Connections in Tampa, FL (28 days in 2009) and Shands Vista - The University of Florida at Gainesville (90 days in 2011). Both programs had excellent staff and also great recovery plans. I never wholeheartedly finished both programs and gave them my all.
Maybe I was destined to drink myself into oblivion. I just don't know anymore?