Thanks for supportive words. lol on getting out of there like a jackrabbit. That is my plan if I start hearing party voices in my head! Also bringing a huge ice tea with me for after work. I know a lot of my drinking was fueled by habit and having a substitute will help. I also sort of feel that if I can't control the urge in tough situations then is the situation really under control at all?
IMT I totally can relate to the voice saying "I'm not that bad" You can always find someone that has it worse, but I'm thinking someone out there may be looking at us saying "I'm not that bad" and that makes me cringe. We're bad enough that we want to be here and that says it all. Good luck!