Jobei.. i swear its like we lived the exact same life!!! lol.. i too, at work would carry a flask in my purse.. and every hour.. off to the ladies room for that little "nip"..just like you, not to get drunk..but to maintain that feeling and not get the shakes... amazing how calculated we can be as alcoholics... if we can now learn to put as much effort into other aspects of our lives.. imagine what we could accomplish!!!