Story, please don't let your mind trick you into thinking he is happy. He is an active addict - he has no feelings. But he has moments of clarity - where he KNOWS what a SOB he is. Of course, its just another excuse to get high but he KNOWS...deep down inside he knows what a scumbag he truly is.
Someday he will have to face what he has done.
You will have the love, the memories, and the pride of a wonderful accomplishment and he will have the shame, the guilt, and a lifetime full of regrets.