HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRAGE!!!!! AND MANY MORE!!!!!
Congrats on your first of what I know will be many sober-versaries. Sorry you are feeling jumbled. Like you said, such good advice, sometimes we have to take things apart and then put them back together in a way that's better for us. Thanks for your support about my family stuff. It's good to be understood.
Have a great dinner! And P.S., you can feel free to extend your birthday to a whole week or however long you want so you can celebrate it the way YOU want to.