Thanks so much for sharing your story. It's hard to read people going through hard times but I relate to a lot of it (the early stuff) and could see myself going along the same road before I quit in April. I'm 24 and I'm 3 months and 2 weeks sober now. Your story (especially the last 3 lines) really hit home... I need to be sober for eternity. No matter what.
There's lots of issues with alcohol in my family, too. In fact, pretty much everyone I know drinks FAR too much. It was only when I met my husband and his family and friends that I realised my drinking and the drinking habits of those around me were completely abnormal.
Thanks again for sharing. I wish you all the best on the rest of your recovery.