thanks dee i have sent may letters to other similar companies and only 1 has got back to me saying they dont have anything at the minute. this is a job i have my heart set on and when i heard the feedback after my interview i was kicking myself as the answers seemed so obvious one id been told. even the manager was disappointed as he said he was trying to give me hints throughout the interview without giving the answers so i know he was willing me to pass the interview. when i applied the closing date was for the 15th june when i was still drinking and after not hearing anything after that date i thought i wasnt succesful but then 4th day into my sobriety i got an email for an interview and i felt like it was a reward for not drinking but after not getting the job i lost faith and turned to drink