I've eaten like a pig today now, the amount of rice I consumed there! Anyway, thanks, she may just have went to stay with a friend or something, and if she isn't going to reply I guess I need to accept that, as I can't change it, i'll need to just do my best for me and my animals just now, that's all I can do. I'm glad I found this forum. I have some valerian root, so hopefully that will help me sleep, and then I can get back in about this recovery stuff tomorrow, that's nearly 24 hours since I poured the booze out, and it's been hard today, but here's hoping that's most of it out of my system and the craving will have mostly subsided. The dreaded conversation will have to be had with my sponsor tomorrow, god we had only just read the doctors opinion.....hopefully I can still go there tomorrow. Cheers guys