Old Mcdonald had a duck E I E i O!! With a QUACK QUACK here and a QUACK QUACK there!! This sounds like another play at manipulation. Youve been on this site for almost 2 yrs so i know that you have read all about an alcoholics behavior and the sad sob stories they throw our way about "regret" and "guilt" after yet ANOTHER mistake theyve made QUACK QUACK QUACK. This email WAS an attempt to mess with your head. Maybe not right away but eventually. Its something he wants to linger around in your brain and computer. Trust me ive had experience so this is not meant to be harsh. After i finally left my XABF after 4 yrs of pure insanity on my part and his he calls me to say that hes sorry, hes the one who f***ed everything up, im wonderful, anybody would be lucky to have me, & he misses me with all his heart QUACK. He then finished it by asking to come over that night to "spend time with our son." HA! Subtlety was never his best alcoholic tool but nevertheless i declined and arranged for them to spend time at the park a couple days later.&Since i had CHOSEN,finally, not to put up with the bs or play into his games he hasnt attempted to call me with anymore quackery or to spend time with our DS for that matter. NOTHING an active alcoholic says is sincere. EVERYTHING they do is an attempt to keep control or get a drink so please dont trick yourself into believing hes finally realizing the seriousness of his behavior and actually feels bad about it. Hes not taking responsibility for anything hes trying to reel you back in slowly but surely. Im glad youre keeping a firm mindset and continue to stay strong. Maybe go NC? The church question has been answered, you dont live with each other or have children together. IJS
PS:Why was he awake at 630am? Up early for work or an all night bender?