.It's ok, aeo. You've got to fine some way to come to grips with this anger. It's had you in it's teeth for the past week or so. I understand it. I get that way ax well at times. For me, i had to stop seeing it as i was being denied a pleasure because when i stopped drinking, alcohol had not been a source of pleasure for a long time. If i could go back to drinking for pleasure then i would but that door closed a long time ago. I don't know why but i think we have to see this sobriety as an opportunity. It's an opportunity to work on our lives in other ways. I'm applying it to my spiritual and social life. I'm also letting it feed my sense of self worth. Staying sober was an impossible task such a short while ago and now it's something i do almost second nature. It's a great pat on the back! Remember, your sobriety is a victory you achieve every day. Celebrate it in your heart. Enjoy your vacation. You're going to have a beautiful time!