I understand just wanting acknowledgement that things happened. I wanted that for a very long time too. And to some extent my mother did give me some level of acknowledgement but it didn't feel like it was enough. I think it was because I expected her to fully understand my perspective and that was an unrealistic expectation. She could never fully understand things from my point of view.
It took me a VERY long time to let go of the need for that validation. But when I did, it was a HUGE relief. A weight lifted off my shoulders. It was a matter of acceptance for me. It happened. I can't change that. It was real. And I let it go for me. It is not a denial of the past. It is an acceptance that was very freeing.
I agree that too much time on our hands can be confounding.
Do something nice for you today. You deserve it.
gentle hugs
ke