Hi WIP
Long before I met AH I used to get occassional emotional outbursts for no reason at all!!!! And that was before I had problems!! Now tears are a regular, although becoming less frequent occurence. I either read it here, or heard it at a meeting (or maybe made it up lol) that tears are really a type of healing.
These days, I actually embrace emotional breakdowns - I had buried stuff inside for a long time, and until recently hadn't cried in many months. Sometimes there isn't a specific reason, but remember what you've been through has been so hard, and the fact that you have this renewed contact might be opening up old stuff that you didn't realise was still there. I know it's so hard, but it might just help to eventually clear your head again. You might be exhausted after it, but in the long run, it's better out than in!
Sending you lots of hugs
Adventure