Jessiec, THANK YOU! I am going to my mom's church this Sunday. I am using the tools I have learned in the past to build my strength back up. Somewhere over the past 2 and a half years living with AXBF I completely LOST myself and all of my strength. Or as Anvil said in another thread, I abandoned myself. Yes, I abandoned my own needs and kept silent because of fear as my boundaries were trampled on.