Originally Posted by
Sapling 
I can tell you which one will give you a better chance of making it to 90 days.
Get rid of the beer you bought.
lol- true true
Someguy,
Thank you. I think you have a great point there.
Thanks guys,
I, for some reason, couldn't bring myself to throw it out so I gave it to the neighbors.
When I woke up today I thought about all the stupid stuff I have done while drinking when my BF is out of town (bad times). When I bought the beer, I thought I could be in control this time, but I know where that leads.
This is kind of deep, but growing up my dad was an alcoholic and took Valium with it. he eventually died from it when I was 19. To this day, because of my dad's drinking and drugs I feel lonely, because he mentally checked out and then permanently checked out. When my BF goes away, and sometimes it is for a couple months at a time (this time only 12 days) I start to feel pathetic and alone, and I want to drink it away.