Okay - I am going to do what you guys are suggesting. Obviously what I am doing isnt working to well. I think it was Albert Einstein who said " Insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting a different result " I guess I would be a bit insane.
I feel hopeful. Having *new* things to think about & having some options I was not aware of, makes me feel hopeful. Thank you all, from my heart, thank you.
You are lifesaving - you are helping to save mine.