It's now that I know......
This post is meant for me. I want to be sure I capture the moment. I need to remember this feeling.
I drank and drugged last night.
Had anyone told me when I was a kid.... Ken you're gonna grow up. Have a great life. Make good money. Be in love.... And oh yeah.... You're going to be a drunk.... And coke head.
I might have told them really? The hell with love and money. The hell with everything if I am going to be an alcoholic drug user!
I know now that I am. There is no more guessing.... Growing old to see what happens.... It is now that I know.
Who would I be if I were not a user? What more could I have accomplished? How much more could I have loved?
It is never about what was. It will always be about what will be.
I write the damn script!
No more writing me out of the scene.
I have always been idealistic. The one that see possibilities in nearly everything and more important everyone.
I see my potential. I will not squander it. I will not give it up to alcohol and drugs. I already won this fight.
Just need to tell the other guy to lay down for the count.