13 days and the break through the fog
Yesterday I sat on the deck watching my kids play (which I never did in the past without a drink) and suddenly, I actually really saw my children. Not through a numb, foggy illusion but clearly saw their smiles and their expressions. And then I noticed how much greener and beautiful the trees look through sober eyes.
But the real breakthrough came when I thought about my husband with a clear head- I used to be angry when he wouldn't pass me the wine at a dinner party, when he would beg me to stop, when he would pour out my vodka bottles..I used to think he was being unreasonable, selfish, not understanding. But now I see him for exactly what he is: a loving husband who simply does not want his wife to die