So glad you are taking care of yourself Bluebonnet. After Anvil's question to me yesterday about whether or not I had abandoned myself, I realized that I had. Long ago. In exchange for the hope of a beautiful dream. I stopped listening to myself and stopped taking care of me, and allowed all of these crazy things to go on in my life and my home, waiting and working towards fulfillment of that dream. I have been trying to find a home group but haven't found one yet. Thank you for the inspiration to keep trying.