Struggling with no contact
I'm weak. I caved today and messaged him saying I missed him and I was so hurt that he was just acting as though I had never been in his life. I felt hurt that he could hurt me so much and still not realise he had a problem. I regret texting him, I know he can only realise he has a problem when HE is ready, and that he has to come to that realization on his own. I think I keep trying to force him to realise it because it's all that stands in the way of us being together.
I know I have to let go but it hurts like hell knowing that I love him but cannot be with him.