My sponsor would tell me not to go if all I had was 19 days. I am powerless over alcohol, and it ruined my life.
I had to change everything about me, including my hangouts, vacations places, and friends. My family is always going to be there, but I am no longer hanging out with my sister because she drinks heavily. I am hanging with my brother, who has a year and a half of sobriety, and my mom.
Alcohol is cunning and powerful and baffling. It sneaks up on me and gets me to drink it. I can't afford to be the same person I was before.